NOTHINGNESS….

Have you ever noticed

That the worst way

To miss someone

Is when they are

Right beside you

And yet you

Can never have them…

 

When the moment

You can’t feel them

Under you fingertips

You miss them?

 

Have you ever wondered

Which hurts the most:

Saying something and wishing

You had not, or

Saying nothing and wishing you had?

 

I guess the most important things,

Are the hardest things to say.

There are the things

You get ashamed of

Because words diminish them,

Words shrink things

That seemed timeless

When they were in your head…

To no more than living size

When they are brought out.

 

Don’t be afraid

To tell someone

You love them

If you do, they might break your heart

But if you don’t

You might break theirs.

 

Have you ever decided

Not to become a couple

Because you were

So afraid of losing

What you already had

With that person?

 

Your heart decides

Who it likes

And who it doesn’t.

You can’t tell your heart

What to do.

It does it on its own… when you least suspect it,

Or even when

You don’t want it to.

 

Have you ever wanted

To love someone

With everything you had,

But that other person

Was too afraid to let you?

 

Too many of us stay walled

Because we are too afraid

To care too much…

For fear that the other

Person does not care as much,

Or not at all.

 

Have you ever loved someone

And they had absolutely

No idea whatsoever?

Or fell for your best friend

In the entire world,

And then sat around

And watched him fall for someone else?

 

Have you ever denied your

Feelings for someone

Because your fear of rejection

Was too hard to handle?

Or have you cast aside

Your feelings because you

Thought things

Were impossible?

 

We tell lies when we are afraid…

Afraid of what we don’t know,

Afraid of what others will think,

Afraid of what will be found out about us.

But everytime we tell a lie…..

The thing we fear grows stronger.

 

Life is all about risks

And it requires you to jump.

Don’t be a person

Who has to look back

And wonder what s/he would have,

Or could have had.

 

Sometimes life offers no 2^nd chance,

No one waits forever so…..

Cherish the past,

It made you what you are.

Treasure the present,

It’s a timeless gift.

Pray for the future,

It’s where hopes are fulfilled

And dreams become reality.

 

“There are only 2 ways to live your life; one as though nothing is a miracle.  The other is as though everything is.”   - Albert Einstein

 

Reasons…

People come into our lives for a reason, a season, or a lifetime.  When we figure out which it is, we’ll know exactly what to do.

When someone is in our life for a reason, it is usually to meet a need we have expressed outwardly or inwardly.  They have come to assist us through a difficulty, to provide us with guidance and support; to aid us physically, emotionally, or spiritually.  They may seem like a Godsend, and they are.  They are there for the reason we need them to be.  Then, without any wrong doing, or a small mistake on our part, or at inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the “relationship” (whatever kind it is) to an end.  Sometimes they die.  Sometimes they walk-away.  Sometimes they act up or out and force us to take a stand.  What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled; their work is done.  The prayer you sent up has been answered and it is now time to move on.  When people come into our life for a season, it is because our turn has come to share, grow or learn.  They may bring us an experience of peace or make us laugh. They may teach us something we’ve never done.  They usually give us an unbelievable amount of joy.  Believe it!  It is real!  BUT, only for a season.

Lifetime relationships teach you lifetime lessons; those things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation.

Our job is to accept the lesson, love the person (anyway);  And put what we have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of our life.

It is said that love is blind, friendship is clairvoyant.

So I know why you are in my life, and I love you for that reason.

for CA

First off all Im not guilt tripping you.  Haven’t you learned anything from me yet? You should know by now that despite the fact that Im evil like you; Ima closet softie too? Sorry that’s just me, but I hope you know that no matter how alike we seemed to be there are bound to be differences along the way. But that doesn’t mean I wanna stop being your friend.

But I owe you an apology too.. I know that if Im really your friend I would try to understand you, and not give you a hard time with all this. I’m sorry you feel that way, this is all unintentional. It’s something weird for the both of us, I guess. 

I just wanna say I’m glad I met you (wag ka sana kumontra please for pete sake!) =) & Thank you for everything and going out of your way just to talk to me & hang out with me, sticking with me despite of my erratic behavior.

P.S. - you are not just another gorgeous face I wanna see a few times, you became a big part of my life, & I mean that for the record! You’ve helped me deal with a lot of crap lately, and Im very grateful. And I really appreciated your companionship, and that’s “real” nothing else attached to that sentence.

 C

BUSY BEYOND BELIEF… AND MOBILE THEMES

I know I haven’t been very diligent with my blogging… I was very busy since December started… There were the endless parties, non-stop shopping, and my new hobby, making mobile themes.. I know I’m becoming a bit of a nerd.. lolz! checkout my themes at chiclet’s mobile themes ; here are some of the samples:

TO A FRIEND (RESPONSE)

Love makes friendship possible
It turns a stranger into a friend.
And when it becomes something deeper.
It is a new beginning & not an end.
If you value our friendship above anything.
You would not be afraid to love me more.
If you fear to do such beautiful deed,
then our friendship has lost its core!
Why have me only as a friend,
When I can be your lover, too?
We have already played the game of love,
The rules haven’t changed; we know what to do.
Or else we’d never beome like these:
FRIENDS that stand by each other side
PARTNERS that look upon another
SOULMATES that have nothing to hide.
Indeed no one is spared from the hurt & the sadness is unbearable if you love not.
It is more painful to be lonely than to love and have fought.
If ever you feel betrayed when I to you propose,
You did not trust me completely,
You did not trust me enough.
Friends, as I have always believed:
ARE TWO PEOPLE IN LOVE
a fact we should all gladly face,
a truth that should cause no worry!

TO A FRIEND

Love is poisonous to a friendship
Yes, it is a poison among friends
For when it turns into something deeper,   that is where friendship ends.
I value our friendship above the rest,
   & I like you too much to let go;
But I don’t want to lose this friendship of ours.
I want to cherish it and so
I’d rather have you as a friend than to love & not be the same.
For these are just foolish past times.
Indeed, love is a dangerous game.
One of us is bound to get hurt, or maybe even both.
So, let’s not make it any harder by asking my serious oath.
Commitments are beautiful, I believe, so please don’t get me wrong.
But only when it’s sure of itself……
   only when it’s strong
Since we are neither one of those
And since there is a sort of a rule,
   then I guess, we’ll just have to face it,
FRIENDS AREN’T MEANT TO FALL IN LOVE!!!!

GUYS POINT OF VIEW

***Guy’s point of view***

 This is very cute! And even written by a guy!
 
You might agree with it, but when it actually happens 99% of girls don’t realize it ’til it is too late and that guy who did it is so frustrated that he has moved on to someone who will take notice.
 
From a guys point of view:
We don’t care if you talk to other guys.
We don’t care if you’re friends with other guys.
But when you’re sitting next to us, and some random guy walks into the room and you jump up and tackle him without even introducing us, yeah, it pisses us off.
It doesn’t help if you sit there and talk to him for ten minutes without even acknowledging the fact that we’re still there.
 
We don’t care if a guy calls you, but at 2 in the morning we do get a little concerned.
Nothing is that important at 2 a.m. that it can’t wait till he morning.
 
Also, when we tell you you’re pretty/beautiful/gorgeous/cute/ stunning, we freaking mean it.
Don’t tell us we’re wrong.We’ll stop trying to convince you.
The sexiest thing about a girl is confidence.
Yeah, you can quote me.
 
Don’t be mad when we hold the door open.
Take Advantage of the mood im in.
LET US PAY FOR YOU! DON’T ‘FEEL BAD’
We enjoy doing it.
It’s expected.
Smile and say ‘thank you.’
 
Kiss us when no one’s watching.
If you kiss us when you know somebody’s looking, we’ll be more impressed.
 
You don’t have to get dressed up for us.
If we’re going out with you in the first place, you don’t have to feel the need to wear the shortest skirt you have or put on every kind of makeup you own.
 
We like you for WHO you are and not WHAT you are.
 
Honestly, I think a girl looks more beautiful when she’s just in her pj’s or my t-shirt and boxers, not all dolled up.
 
Don’t take everything we say seriously.
Sarcasm is a beautiful thing. See the beauty in it.
Don’t get angry easily.
Stop using magazines/media as your bible.
 
Don’t talk about how hott Morris Chesnutt, Brad Pitt, or Jesse McCartney is in front of us. It’s boring, and we don’t care. You have girlfriends for that.
 
Whatever happened to the word ‘handsome’/'beautiful’.
 
I’d be utterly stunned by a girl who greeted me with ‘Hey handsome!’ instead of ‘Hey baby/ stud/ cutie/ sexy’ or whatever else you can think of.
 
On the other hand im not sayin i wouldn’t like it ether.
 
Girls: I cannot stress this enough: IF YOU AREN’T BEING TREATED RIGHT BY A GUY, DON’T WAIT FOR HIM TO CHANGE. DITCH HIS SORRY DISGRACE-TO-THE-MALE-POPULATION ASS, AND FIND SOMEONE WHO WILL TREAT YOU WITH UTTER RESPECT
 
Someone who will honor your morals.
Someone who will make you smile when you’re at your lowest.
Someone who will care for you even when you make mistakes.
Someone who will love you, no matter how bad you make them feel.
Someone who will stop what they’re doing just to look you in the eyes….and say ‘i love you’ ……….AND ACTUALLY MEAN IT!
 
*****Give the nice guys a chance*****
 
Holdin Hands- Girls : If you want to hold his hand, gently bump into it a couple of times.
 Guys : Grab it if it happens more than once.
 
Cuddling- Girls : When you want to cuddle with him, tell him you’re cold. 
Guys : Automatically move closer to her.
 
Movies- Girls : During a movie, if he puts his arm around you, tilt your head on his shoulder
Guys : Lift her chin up and kiss her.
 
Loving each other- Guys : When she tells you she loves you, look deep into  her eyes, give her a peck on the lips, and tell her you love her too… And  mean it.
 
Laying below the stars- Girls : When you’re both laying under the stars, 
put your head on his chest and close your eyes as you listen to his steady 
heart beat
Guys : Whisper in her ear and link your hands with hers. Now 
make a wish about something you would like to happen Between you and your  crush….

 guys: no grabbing!!!

REUNITED: A Two-sided Poem

I SAW HIM TODAY.

I saw her today.

IT’S BEEN A WHILE.

It seems like centuries.

HE LOOKED OKAY.

I couldn’t stop staring at her.

WE TALKED FOR A WHILE.

She looked so fine.

HE KEPT LOOKING AT ME & I WONDERED WHY.

She wouldn’t look me in the eye & I wondered why.

HE ASKED ME HOW I WAS & I TOLD HIM ABOUT MY NEW BOYFRIEND.

She asked me if i had a girlfriend, & I told her I didn’t.

I PRETENDED LIKE I CARED.

I pretended like I didn’t care.

HE LOOKED DIFFERENT THAN HE USED TO.

She looked hotter than ever.

I GAVE HIM A FRIENDLY HUG GOODBYE.

We held each other one more time.

AND THEN I WENT SHOPPING.

& I asked my friends to join me in a red-horse drinking session & cried.

Muchos gracias mi amigo

My status in my facebook account is “HEARTBROKEN” … It’s not just about Koykoy alone; its more of an over all feeling… or maybe I was just severely hormonal the past few weeks, since December is the busiest month of my every year…

One of my Venezuelan friends Albert Afonso sent me this message, not an hour after I posted the “HEART BROKEN” status:

“How come you are heartbroken…. you can not….

many people love you! maybe one guy there not but you have more people loving you than many others wish to have….

my bebe …. i will call you in a while ….. i can not feel good reading that….

Big hug for you….”

Its funny because after reading his note, I did feel a lot better..

AA, gracias por ser un amor y un buen amigo.y sobre todo gracias por estar alli para mi! Dejas a París y vuelvas por aca pronto! - ChicLet

LAST OF THE LYRICS POST…

I know… all I’ve been doing is post lyrics of songs i dedicate to people… Sometimes I don’t even bother to expound why Im dedicating the song to them… I’m sorry but I’ve been a bit busy lately…. so sometimes, I just blog down stuffs in a hurry…. Just like right now, while Im waiting for a call… Im writing random thoughts thats in my mind… not that there’s a lot… Well, Lately Ram & I have been on our “On again, Off again” mode… meaning we break up this hour, we get back together the next…. And for some odd & forsaken reason, each time we break up & make up he would think of a song for me, thus compelling me to dedicate one for him as well… 

 Well, I’ve had it… (I think) … hahaha!!!! So Koy, this is my final song for you….

Chix

RUNNING AWAY
By: Ang Tunay Na Amo

http://www.box.net/shared/8s6mcpl5p4
I just sit up all alone in the park
For so many hours
Thinkin’ all about the precious moments
That we have shared
I thought back then that you and I
Were meant to be
It’s funny, boy, how I believed
That you really, really care

You said that I will always be the one for you
But tell me, babe,
Who’s that girl you kissed last night
You knew how much I really loved you
Seems you just can’t keep your love
From dying tonight
Chorus:

(I’m) running away from the places
And things that make me think of you
But I guess there’s just no letting go
Of this feeling I ache inside
Running away, I’ve been trying
So hard to keep away from you
Now forgetting you is all I have to do
That’s why I’m runnin’ away from you, oh
The time that we’ve been through
Were always on my mind
I never thought that there will be an end
Oh how I wish that this was all a dream
It did hurt in me inside all over again

Repeat Chorus

After all I gave to you,
Your love is still untrue
Now there’s nothing I can do
But to run away..