DN

It is so easy to see
Dysfunction between you & me
We must free up these tired souls
Before the sadness gets us both

I tried & tried to let you know
I love you but I’m letting go
It may not last but I don’t know
Just don’t know

If you don’t know then you can’t care
& I show up up but you’re not there
But I’m waiting & you want to.
Still afraid that I will desert you.

Everyday with every word whispered
We get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing last forever but be honest, Babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

A web that’s warm with memories
Can heal us temporarily
The misbehaving all it makes
The ditch between us so damn deep

Built a wall aound my heart
Never let it fall apart
Strangely I wish secretly
It won’t fall down while I’m asleep

If you don’t know then you can’t care
& I show up up but you’re not there
But I’m waiting & you want to.
Still afraid that I will desert you.

Everyday with every word whispered
We get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing last forever but be honest, Babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

But we have not hit the ground
Doesn’t mean we’re not still falling
I want so bad to pick you up
But you’re still too reluctant to accept my help

What a shame
I hope you find somewhere
To place the blame
But until then the fact remains

Everyday with every word whispered
We get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing last forever but be honest, Babe
It hurts that it may be the only way

snowflakes in snowtown

BABE! I MISS YOU… I GUESS YOURE HORRIBLY BUSY… YOU HARDLY HAVE TIME FOR YOUR LIL GF.. BUT I KNOW YOU HAVE A GOOD REASON NOT TO BE IN TOUCH WITH ME (WELL IM HOPING YOU DO)..

HONESTLY BABE, THESE PAST FEW WEEKS THAT I HAVE BEEN WITH YOU (OR IS IT MONTHS ALREADY), HAVE BEEN AMAZING.. I FIND IT SO AMUSING THAT OUT OF ALL THE GUYS I’VE BEEN WITH.. YOURE THE ONLY ONE WHO HAS THE ABILITY TO TICK ME OFF (MAKE ME MAD), BUT AFTER ALL THE ARGUMENTS & TEMPORARY BREAK UPS, I DIDN’T END UP DESPISING YOU, BUT INSTEAD I JUST REALIZE HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU MORE & HOW I CAN’T LIVE WITHOUT YOU (OR ATLEAST REFUSE TO)….

OVER ALL THAT HAPPENED.. I REALIZED THAT LOVE ISN’T ALWAYS A LIGHTNING BOLT, YOU KNOW? MAYBE SOMETIMES ITS JUST A CHOICE. THAT’S JUST IT. I DON’T KNOW IF YOU ARE INDEED THE LOVE OF MY LIFE, BUT I’VE DECIDED TO GIVE YOU THE CHANCE TO BE. MAYBE TRUE LOVE IS A DECISION. YOU KNOW, LIKE A DECISION TO TAKE A CHANCE WITH SOMEBODY. TO GIVE TO SOMEBODY WITHOUT WORRYING WHETHER THEY’LL GIVE ANYTHING BACK. OR IF THEY’RE GONNA HURT YOU, OR IF THEY REALLY ARE “THE ONE”. MAYBE LOVE ISN’T SOMETHING WE HAVE TO CHOOSE… LIKE OUT OF ALL THE MILLIONS OF PEOPLE, WE CHOOSE TO BE WITH EACH OTHER. SO IF THIS RELATIONSHIP WORKS OUT OR NOT, WE CAN’T GO ON BLAMING “THE TIMING”, “THE GEOGRAPHICAL LOCATION”, OR EVEN “OUR FINANCIAL RESOURCES”… IF WE SUCCEED OR FAIL, IT’S ALL OF WHAT WE DID, OR DID NOT DO.. ALL US.

I WILL PROMISE TO LOVE YOU FOR THE REST OF MINE. I’M NOT PERFECT.. MY LIFE ISN’T PERFECT EITHER.. BUT HAVING YOU IN IT MAKES IT SOOOO DAMN CLOSE!

I DO HOPE WE GET PAST ALL THE FIGHTS & TRIALS, & STILL END UP TOGETHER. BEC I LOVE YOU & I WANNA BE YOUR LIL SNOWFLAKE MUNCHKIN PRINCESS FOREVER. 

FROM, YOUR LIL SNOWFLAKE

Have you ever noticed

That the worst way

To miss someone

Is when they are

Right beside you

And yet you

Can never have them…

When the moment

You can’t feel them

Under you fingertips

You miss them?

Have you ever wondered

Which hurts the most:

Saying something and wishing

You had not, or

Saying nothing and wishing you had?

I guess the most important things,

Are the hardest things to say.

There are the things

You get ashamed of

Because words diminish them,

Words shrink things

That seemed timeless

When they were in your head…

To no more than living size

When they are brought out.

Don’t be afraid

To tell someone

You love them

If you do, they might break your heart

But if you don’t

You might break theirs.

Have you ever decided

Not to become a couple

Because you were

So afraid of losing

What you already had

With that person?

Your heart decides

Who it likes

And who it doesn’t.

You can’t tell your heart

What to do.

It does it on its own… when you least suspect it,

Or even when

You don’t want it to.

Have you ever wanted

To love someone

With everything you had,

But that other person

Was too afraid to let you?

Too many of us stay walled

Because we are too afraid

To care too much…

For fear that the other

Person does not care as much,

Or not at all.

Have you ever loved someone

And they had absolutely

No idea whatsoever?

Or fell for your best friend

In the entire world,

And then sat around

And watched him fall for someone else?

Have you ever denied your

Feelings for someone

Because your fear of rejection

Was too hard to handle?

Or have you cast aside

Your feelings because you

Thought things

Were impossible?

We tell lies when we are afraid…

Afraid of what we don’t know,

Afraid of what others will think,

Afraid of what will be found out about us.

But everytime we tell a lie…..

The thing we fear grows stronger.

Life is all about risks

And it requires you to jump.

Don’t be a person

Who has to look back

And wonder what s/he would have,

Or could have had.

Sometimes life offers no 2^nd chance,

No one waits forever so…..

Cherish the past,

It made you what you are.

Treasure the present,

It’s a timeless gift.

Pray for the future,

It’s where hopes are fulfilled

And dreams become reality.

“There are only 2 ways to live your life; one as though nothing is a miracle.  The other is as though everything is.”   - Albert Einstein

People come into our lives for a reason, a season, or a lifetime.  When we figure out which it is, we’ll know exactly what to do.

When someone is in our life for a reason, it is usually to meet a need we have expressed outwardly or inwardly.  They have come to assist us through a difficulty, to provide us with guidance and support; to aid us physically, emotionally, or spiritually.  They may seem like a Godsend, and they are.  They are there for the reason we need them to be.  Then, without any wrong doing, or a small mistake on our part, or at inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the “relationship” (whatever kind it is) to an end.  Sometimes they die.  Sometimes they walk-away.  Sometimes they act up or out and force us to take a stand.  What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled; their work is done.  The prayer you sent up has been answered and it is now time to move on.  When people come into our life for a season, it is because our turn has come to share, grow or learn.  They may bring us an experience of peace or make us laugh. They may teach us something we’ve never done.  They usually give us an unbelievable amount of joy.  Believe it!  It is real!  BUT, only for a season.

Lifetime relationships teach you lifetime lessons; those things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation.

Our job is to accept the lesson, love the person (anyway);  And put what we have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of our life.

It is said that love is blind, friendship is clairvoyant.

So I know why you are in my life, and I love you for that reason.

First off all Im not guilt tripping you.  Haven’t you learned anything from me yet? You should know by now that despite the fact that Im evil like you; Ima closet softie too? Sorry that’s just me, but I hope you know that no matter how alike we seemed to be there are bound to be differences along the way. But that doesn’t mean I wanna stop being your friend.

But I owe you an apology too.. I know that if Im really your friend I would try to understand you, and not give you a hard time with all this. I’m sorry you feel that way, this is all unintentional. It’s something weird for the both of us, I guess. 

I just wanna say I’m glad I met you (wag ka sana kumontra please for pete sake!) =) & Thank you for everything and going out of your way just to talk to me & hang out with me, sticking with me despite of my erratic behavior.

P.S. – you are not just another gorgeous face I wanna see a few times, you became a big part of my life, & I mean that for the record! You’ve helped me deal with a lot of crap lately, and Im very grateful. And I really appreciated your companionship, and that’s “real” nothing else attached to that sentence.

 C

I know I haven’t been very diligent with my blogging… I was very busy since December started… There were the endless parties, non-stop shopping, and my new hobby, making mobile themes.. I know I’m becoming a bit of a nerd.. lolz! checkout my themes at chiclet’s mobile themes ; here are some of the samples:

Love makes friendship possible
It turns a stranger into a friend.
And when it becomes something deeper.
It is a new beginning & not an end.
If you value our friendship above anything.
You would not be afraid to love me more.
If you fear to do such beautiful deed,
then our friendship has lost its core!
Why have me only as a friend,
When I can be your lover, too?
We have already played the game of love,
The rules haven’t changed; we know what to do.
Or else we’d never beome like these:
FRIENDS that stand by each other side
PARTNERS that look upon another
SOULMATES that have nothing to hide.
Indeed no one is spared from the hurt & the sadness is unbearable if you love not.
It is more painful to be lonely than to love and have fought.
If ever you feel betrayed when I to you propose,
You did not trust me completely,
You did not trust me enough.
Friends, as I have always believed:
ARE TWO PEOPLE IN LOVE
a fact we should all gladly face,
a truth that should cause no worry!

Love is poisonous to a friendship
Yes, it is a poison among friends
For when it turns into something deeper,   that is where friendship ends.
I value our friendship above the rest,
   & I like you too much to let go;
But I don’t want to lose this friendship of ours.
I want to cherish it and so
I’d rather have you as a friend than to love & not be the same.
For these are just foolish past times.
Indeed, love is a dangerous game.
One of us is bound to get hurt, or maybe even both.
So, let’s not make it any harder by asking my serious oath.
Commitments are beautiful, I believe, so please don’t get me wrong.
But only when it’s sure of itself……
   only when it’s strong
Since we are neither one of those
And since there is a sort of a rule,
   then I guess, we’ll just have to face it,
FRIENDS AREN’T MEANT TO FALL IN LOVE!!!!

***Guy’s point of view***

 This is very cute! And even written by a guy!
 
You might agree with it, but when it actually happens 99% of girls don’t realize it ’til it is too late and that guy who did it is so frustrated that he has moved on to someone who will take notice.
 
From a guys point of view:
We don’t care if you talk to other guys.
We don’t care if you’re friends with other guys.
But when you’re sitting next to us, and some random guy walks into the room and you jump up and tackle him without even introducing us, yeah, it pisses us off.
It doesn’t help if you sit there and talk to him for ten minutes without even acknowledging the fact that we’re still there.
 
We don’t care if a guy calls you, but at 2 in the morning we do get a little concerned.
Nothing is that important at 2 a.m. that it can’t wait till he morning.
 
Also, when we tell you you’re pretty/beautiful/gorgeous/cute/ stunning, we freaking mean it.
Don’t tell us we’re wrong.We’ll stop trying to convince you.
The sexiest thing about a girl is confidence.
Yeah, you can quote me.
 
Don’t be mad when we hold the door open.
Take Advantage of the mood im in.
LET US PAY FOR YOU! DON’T ‘FEEL BAD’
We enjoy doing it.
It’s expected.
Smile and say ‘thank you.’
 
Kiss us when no one’s watching.
If you kiss us when you know somebody’s looking, we’ll be more impressed.
 
You don’t have to get dressed up for us.
If we’re going out with you in the first place, you don’t have to feel the need to wear the shortest skirt you have or put on every kind of makeup you own.
 
We like you for WHO you are and not WHAT you are.
 
Honestly, I think a girl looks more beautiful when she’s just in her pj’s or my t-shirt and boxers, not all dolled up.
 
Don’t take everything we say seriously.
Sarcasm is a beautiful thing. See the beauty in it.
Don’t get angry easily.
Stop using magazines/media as your bible.
 
Don’t talk about how hott Morris Chesnutt, Brad Pitt, or Jesse McCartney is in front of us. It’s boring, and we don’t care. You have girlfriends for that.
 
Whatever happened to the word ‘handsome’/'beautiful’.
 
I’d be utterly stunned by a girl who greeted me with ‘Hey handsome!’ instead of ‘Hey baby/ stud/ cutie/ sexy’ or whatever else you can think of.
 
On the other hand im not sayin i wouldn’t like it ether.
 
Girls: I cannot stress this enough: IF YOU AREN’T BEING TREATED RIGHT BY A GUY, DON’T WAIT FOR HIM TO CHANGE. DITCH HIS SORRY DISGRACE-TO-THE-MALE-POPULATION ASS, AND FIND SOMEONE WHO WILL TREAT YOU WITH UTTER RESPECT
 
Someone who will honor your morals.
Someone who will make you smile when you’re at your lowest.
Someone who will care for you even when you make mistakes.
Someone who will love you, no matter how bad you make them feel.
Someone who will stop what they’re doing just to look you in the eyes….and say ‘i love you’ ……….AND ACTUALLY MEAN IT!
 
*****Give the nice guys a chance*****
 
Holdin Hands- Girls : If you want to hold his hand, gently bump into it a couple of times.
 Guys : Grab it if it happens more than once.
 
Cuddling- Girls : When you want to cuddle with him, tell him you’re cold. 
Guys : Automatically move closer to her.
 
Movies- Girls : During a movie, if he puts his arm around you, tilt your head on his shoulder
Guys : Lift her chin up and kiss her.
 
Loving each other- Guys : When she tells you she loves you, look deep into  her eyes, give her a peck on the lips, and tell her you love her too… And  mean it.
 
Laying below the stars- Girls : When you’re both laying under the stars, 
put your head on his chest and close your eyes as you listen to his steady 
heart beat
Guys : Whisper in her ear and link your hands with hers. Now 
make a wish about something you would like to happen Between you and your  crush….

 guys: no grabbing!!!

I saw her today.

IT’S BEEN A WHILE.

It seems like centuries.

HE LOOKED OKAY.

I couldn’t stop staring at her.

WE TALKED FOR A WHILE.

She looked so fine.

HE KEPT LOOKING AT ME & I WONDERED WHY.

She wouldn’t look me in the eye & I wondered why.

HE ASKED ME HOW I WAS & I TOLD HIM ABOUT MY NEW BOYFRIEND.

She asked me if i had a girlfriend, & I told her I didn’t.

I PRETENDED LIKE I CARED.

I pretended like I didn’t care.

HE LOOKED DIFFERENT THAN HE USED TO.

She looked hotter than ever.

I GAVE HIM A FRIENDLY HUG GOODBYE.

We held each other one more time.

AND THEN I WENT SHOPPING.

& I asked my friends to join me in a red-horse drinking session & cried.