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For RLJ

Terrified  Terrified (live) by Didi Benami and Jason Reeves

You, by the light
Is the greatest find
In a world full of wrong
You’re the thing that’s right
Finally made it through the lonely
To the other side

You set it again, my heart’s in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
I’m at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows burning
in the dark

And I’m in love
And I’m terrified
For the first time
and the last time
In my only life

And this could be good
It’s already better than that
And nothing’s worse
Than knowing you’re holding back
I could be all that you need
If you let me try

You set it again, my heart’s in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
I’m at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows burning in the dark

And I’m in love
And I’m terrified
For the first time and the last time
In my only

I only said it ’cause I mean it
I only mean ’cause it’s true
So don’t you doubt what I’ve been dreaming
‘Cause it fills me up and holds me close whenever I’m without you

You set it again,
my heart’s in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
I’m at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows burning in the dark

And I’m in love
And I’m terrified
For the first time and the last time
In my only life

maybe you should start praying hard again; that my feelings for you will eventually go away… so you can finally get rid of me forever…  if you will rely on me, I never fall in love half baked… im always there for the long haul… i may complain and whine about alot of things.. but at the end of the day, im still that one person that will be there for you… no matter how though things are..   i think me loving you, is just one big hassle for you.. even if you dont say it.. it certainly shows in your actions.. unfortunately we can’t choose the one we will fall in love with… because if thats the case… people will always gravitate towards the easy relationships… I’m not sorry that i fell for you… its probably one of the few right things i did in my life… ive always gravitated to the easy, no brainer, meaningless  relationships… i never had to work for anything.. so maybe when youre through with me i might’ve develop more character, more substance… or im probably dead from a heart attack from u. But I am sorry, that its such a hassle for you… that youre being forced to deal with emotions, you obviously are not used to; but then againn tapping into my real feelings is something i was never good at and spent most of my life running away from… unfortunately life has a weird and twisted way of making us comfront them… It took alot of sleepless nights to actually realize that what I feel for you isn’t just a crush blown out of proportion; or a lust….  It took so much courage (and fear) to admit to myself that I haven’t wanted someone like I want you in so long… that I’ve fallen in love with somebody who probably will never feel the same way about me this lifetime, or the next. C

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Protected: THE LOVE LETTER I GOT ON THE DAY OF MY 2ND MONTH WITH JAY

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Protected: My Thoughts On the Last Day of 2009

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Protected: I love you, I hate you

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BUSY BEYOND BELIEF… AND MOBILE THEMES

I know I haven’t been very diligent with my blogging… I was very busy since December started… There were the endless parties, non-stop shopping, and my new hobby, making mobile themes.. I know I’m becoming a bit of a nerd.. lolz! checkout my themes at chiclet’s mobile themes ; here are some of the samples:

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TO A FRIEND

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Love is poisonous to a friendship
Yes, it is a poison among friends
For when it turns into something deeper,   that is where friendship ends.
I value our friendship above the rest,
   & I like you too much to let go;
But I don’t want to lose this friendship of ours.
I want to cherish it and so
I’d rather have you as a friend than to love & not be the same.
For these are just foolish past times.
Indeed, love is a dangerous game.
One of us is bound to get hurt, or maybe even both.
So, let’s not make it any harder by asking my serious oath.
Commitments are beautiful, I believe, so please don’t get me wrong.
But only when it’s sure of itself……
   only when it’s strong
Since we are neither one of those
And since there is a sort of a rule,
   then I guess, we’ll just have to face it,

FRIENDS AREN’T MEANT TO FALL IN LOVE!!!!

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